A pretty perfect day

Lacey woke up this morning at 6:00 which usually means that I have to get up and play with her. I was still pretty tired so I gave her some milk and laid her back in her crib. Something amazing happened... she went back to bed for an extra two and a half hours. When she woke up, I was well rested and she was well rested. This is the first time in a while that she has woken up happy instead of grumpy and clingy. 

Then I got to spend the morning just hanging out, reading books, playing with toys, and running around with Lacey. It was a lot of fun, and I think that both of us really enjoyed it. After playing our hearts out, I put her down in her crib and she took a nap. No fussing, no crying, she just gave me a kiss and laid down for a two and a half hour nap. It is usually an ordeal getting her to nap and I was really worried about how things would go once I stopped nursing. It was wonderful. 

She woke up, we ate lunch and then we went to pick up the kids that I nanny for. It really was such a wonderful day. Lacey hardly cried or complained at all today. I actually felt like a good mom today. I felt like she really appreciated me today. It was a good day, a great day, a pretty perfect day!

Weaning

I haven't nursed Lacey in the past 24 hours... This is about the hundredth time that I have decided to wean Lacey. Every time that I have tried before she would pull on my shirt and ask for milk. After enough tugging and crying I would eventually give in.

I usually only nurse her right before I put her down for a nap. It is the easiest way to get her to calm down enough to fall asleep. Today, I gave her a sippy cup of milk and then laid her down in her crib. She took a great nap. She didn't ask to nurse at all, which is HUGE... maybe this time we will actually wean her!

It's how cold?

In the afternoon I have to go an pick up two kids from the elementary school and take them home. Unfortunately it isn't one of those, pull up to the school, the kids jump in the car kind of situations. I have to park a couple blocks away and then wait outside the school for them to come out. The last couple days it has been absolutely miserable. The weather says it is a 9 degrees out, but with the windchill it feels like -27 (seriously, that's what weather.com said)... let me tell you how much I love winter.

I am an Arizona girl at heart, and if it were up to me I wouldn't go outside any days that are below 40  degrees out. I am so ready for winter be over!

So what's the problem?

Scott and I get along really well. We don't argue too often. We still love hanging out together. We make each other laugh. We both love Lacey more than we ever knew that we could. We still try to read each other's minds to make the other one happy.

All of those things may seem great, but the last one is really not working out for us. Scott and I always have the best of intentions, but we should really stop trying to do what we think the other person wants. We have had so many nights that we do something or go to a certain restaurant just to have both of us disappointed because we only went because it was what we thought the other person wanted. We have wasted a lot of money and time doing things that neither of us really wanted to do in the first place, all because we wanted the other person to be happy.

Tonight it was pizza. He ordered a certain pizza because he thought it was what I wanted, I only listed it as an option for him because he had said that it sounded good to him. We ended up with the pizza I didn't really want and one for him that he thought sounded the best... total failure (for me)! We just aren't very good at communicating what we actually want. For the next week we are going to try a little experiment, maybe it will blow up in our faces, we are going to be totally honest about what we really want. Not leave any room for mind reading or guessing from the other person.

I'm interested to see if things get better or worse.

Kiss?

Lacey cracks me up sometimes. She has always been a social butterfly (as long as I am close by). When we are at the store she will wave at every person that walks by us. She will continue to wave even if the person isn't looking at her. She has started to act a little more shy recently with her waves, she will wave really quick and then fold her arms. It is so much fun seeing her little personality develop.

Lacey has always been really good about giving me kisses until recently. Now any time I ask her to give momma a kiss she will turn to the closest person, say kiss, then pucker up and lean in. Most of the time the closest person is Scott but occasionally it will be a stranger standing in line behind us, or the neighbor.

Today we came inside from our car just as the mailman was dropping off a package at our door. She leans towards him and said "kiss." Luckily, I know what she is saying but it probably isn't super clear to anyone who doesn't hear her talk all day. I mean, why in the world would she want to give our mailman a kiss? She is such a weirdo sometimes!

Well that was quick

I can't believe it is already Sunday night. I spent the entire week waiting for the weekend to show up and it is now already over. It wasn't that I had any special plans for the weekend, I just was ready to have a break and relax. As if the weekend actually changes anything for me, I still have to do all the motherly things whether I want to or not.

 Lacey and I love having Scott around the house on the weekends. I love having another adult to talk to, and Lacey loves having another parent to ask when I say no to her requests. Then on Mondays life goes back to normal and I am home by myself with Lacey again just waiting for the weekend.

Other than having Scott home, the weekends really aren't that different than any other day of the week. I should take the time to enjoy everyday instead of counting down the days until the weekend. That will be my goal this week, to stop focusing on the weekend and just enjoy my daily routine with Lace.

Grateful

I don't think I tell Scott enough how grateful I am for him. Since I started nannying this past week Scott has really helped me with all the things I haven't been able to do. Every night this last week he has done the dishes after dinner and made sure the kitchen was clean. I love waking up to a clean kitchen. I feel like that makes my day go so much smoother. He has changed almost all of Lacey's diapers when he is home. It is so nice to say, "Ewww, Lacey you stink" and then have him jump up and take care of it. He has helped me give Lacey baths. He has played with Lacey while I have done other things on my to-do list. He even helped me come up with our weekly meal plan so I wouldn't have to do it by myself. Tonight he cooked me dinner. I don't know what has gotten into him, maybe he made some new year resolutions. Whatever it is, I love it! I am so grateful for all of his extra help on top of all the things he always has done for me.