Mmmm... dinner

Scott found out they were going to open up a Costa Vida down in Chicago. He has been itching to go ever since. Scott LOVES Costa, and I think that's what he missed most about living in Utah. I swear that he spent half of his paycheck eating out there so it is probably a good thing Chicago isn't closer. 

Since Scott was already in Chicago for a dental convention he made plans to go out with the guys for dinner before heading home. They had a large lunch so they weren't ready to eat again when they left the convention so they decided to see a movie, and then swing by to grab dinner. They showed up at 7:50, 10 minutes before closing and they wouldn't let them in. To say Scott was disappointed is an understatement.

At least I got to eat yummy food tonight. I went to Olive Garden with one of the other dental wives. It was super yummy. I've been craving mushroom ravioli, and it didn't disappoint.

My worries

I remembered what I was going to blog about today. One of our neighbors had their second baby today, a beautiful little girl. The mom posted a picture of her first on Facebook talking about how she worries about him with the new baby coming. She worries about him loving his sister, being jealous. She also talked about how she worries about how she will do as a mom, if she will be able to give him the attention he deserves, make him feel loved, and everything else that worries about having two. Her two kids are 22 months apart, he same that Lacey and our next little one will be. I have the same fears and worries about Lacey and whether or not I will be a good mom with two when I feel like I fail at being a mom of only one sometimes.

Lacey hates when I give my attention to other babies. If she ever catches me holding another baby she wants to be held. If I'm playing with another baby she will come out her face in between mine and theirs. I'm sure she'll have an issue with the whole jealous thing. 

Yesterday I got a small glimpse of something that made me excited for two. I picked one of my friends and her little baby up at the airport. Her baby girl cried most of the way home. The entire time Lacey was so concerned for the crying baby sitting next to her. She kept tapping the the handle to her infant carrier and then she started singing. It was very sweet, and made me realize that there are sure to be tough moments, but there will also be these kind of moments that just make my heart burst. 

Lacey is growing up faster than I want her to. We still have six months before we add to our family, but I think she'll be a great older sister when the time comes.

What a stud!

The last couple months I have been pretty much worthless. I can count the number of loads of laundry, number of meals I've cooked, and number of dishes I've washed on one hand. Through all of it Scott has been a rockstar. He has done dishes and laundry and vacuuming and cooking and childcare. He goes to school all day and then comes home and asks how he can help, or what needs to be done around the house. I don't think I would be as understanding if he all of a sudden didn't do anything all day long.
With Lacey being sick the last couple days he has been an amazing dad! He has been playing with blocks with Lacey. Cuddling her when she starts to get sleepy. He's helped in the middle of the night when she wakes up crying and moaning. He truly amazes me. He works so hard during the day and then comes home and puts in more effort. I don't think I could ever do what I do without him. He has been such a stud, especially the last little bit.

Poor baby

I've been debating whether or not I should take my blog private or keep it open to the public. I plan to start posting more pictures of our family, and I am leaning towards making it private. To be honest, I doubt there are very many people who actually read my blog on a regular basis. If you want an invite let me know, more than happy to send out invites to people I know.

That being said, today was rough. Luckily I felt pretty good today. Man, it feels great to be normal. Lacey wasn't feeling very good today. This is the most sick she has ever been. She has had a fever of 101 all day. Her nose is constantly a discusting mess of smeared snot. But of us have been covered in throw up today. She has been super clingy and has just wanted to cuddle all day. That is very out of character for her. She napped for about 15 minutes before she started crying and moaning. The only way I could get her to sleep was to hold her and rock her to sleep. It makes me so sad to see her struggle so much. I never knew how much it would hurt me to see her get sick. It's the saddest thing ever.

I hate knowing that there isn't anything that I can do, but I do love the extra cuddles. I can't wait to have my cute, happy little girl back.

Well, this is new

I feel like a brand new person. Today is the day I have been waiting for the last couple months. Today was the first day that I feel like a normal human being. I ate food today without cringing. I ran around and chased Lacey instead of turning the tv on. I smiled more today. I made dinner today and it wasn't even Mac 'n cheese.
I am so looking forward to the coming days. If I remember right, I had a couple great days squeezed in between the sick days, and then one day the sick days just went away. I am aware that I might not feel this great in the morning, but for now I'm just going to enjoy feeling good. I'm going to celebrate the fact that I don't feel sick to my stomach for the first time in what seems like forever. To celebrate the fact that food actually sounds appealing.
Thank you second trimester!!

right now

Just a few days ago I wrote about how I was anxious for Lacey to start talking. I had a realization just yesterday. I was talking with one of my friends about nursing and I can't remember how it happened. One day she nursed and asked for it all the time, he next day she didn't even ask. I realized that one day she needed me and the next she didn't. It wasn't a slow and gradual change, it happened over night. How many things have changed like that where I haven't noticed. Lacey will only be this age once, and I really don't want to miss out on this.
The last couple months I have been pretty sick and I feel like I've been a pretty terrible mom. Lacey has been watching much more tv then I would like to admit. The last couple days I am actually starting to feel more like a normal human being. It's time to step up my mommy game. I only have 6 more months of having Lacey as an only child. After that, life is going to get crazy again and I'm going to have to figure out how to manage having two.
There are so many areas of my life that need some improvement, but for now, this is where I want to start. I want to be the best mom to Lacey as I possibly can. I want to spend time reading with her. I want to spend time chasing her around the house. I want to take her to the park and watch her run around in the sun. I want to enjoy this stage instead of being anxious for the next stage.

We're pretty excited

So the last couple months have been rough. I forgot how sick I get when I'm pregnant (it's probably a good thing that I forgot). I think that I am finally nearing the end of this whole being sick all day every day. I'm due on the 27th of August. I swear that being due at the end of the month is the worst. People can remember the month that you are due, but not the actual date. So, once August hits I will be asked a million times if they baby is coming. Then the month will just drag on. I went over my due date by a couple of days with Lacey, so I'm guessing that it will be the same way with this one. We are pretty excited about having another baby even if we don't have any idea how we will manage having two. Crazy!